menunggu, menanti dengan penuh harap..

meski waktu seakan mencuri harapan..

membuat hidup seakan berhenti menatap ke depan..

menahan langkah untuk memeluk mimpi-mimpi, cita-cita..


namun waktu dapat dikalahkan..

oleh kuatnya harapan..


walau esok tidak selalu sama dengan hari ini..

bukan artinya tiada harapan..


betapa pengharapan itu tidak sia-sia..
pada masa ia berbuah..
saat ini..

this is the end of three weeks school holiday. many things have happened and some things will stay long in my mind. i remember how He answered my prayers at the beginning of this year, 2011. He somehow made a wake up call on me. i am fresh and renewed.. isn't it great to possess such a great feeling?

i am going to make important decisions during this year. in jobs, relationship, family, and service. challenges will be always on my way but perhaps in a different way than last year, who knows?

i hold on to a stronger hope. i pray that my heart will stay committed on what i believe. unshakable and true. i ask everything i need to be the light and salt for others. nothing is impossible if we are truly faithful.

always and always to put my trust on Him, whose love and grace keep me alive... really alive.

i just want to take note of this following words. it reminds me about keeping my pace not in a hurry...

Yeah....my last movie in 2010 is THE TOURIST!!!
Damn!!! it's so entertaining...enjoying Johhny Depp acting so much (I always love his act...) BUT I just wondering why his running style was so JACK SPARROW...ckckckckc
nice view too...and good artists Ms Jolie n Mr Depp...awesome!!!

Then my 1st movie in 2011 is LITTLE FOCKERS!!!!
It was so HILLARIOUS....so entertaining....at least it entertained me:))
BUT I guess it's still PG 13 ......hahahahahhahaa

I can't wait for another 2011 good movies!!! :))

detik2 pergantian tahun...
seperti biasa I'm too stunning with my PC and I had this conversation with one of my boy friend....
This is what I called not too deep topic BUT it has GOOD QUALITY...

pembicaraan kita standard lah...gue sibuk bertanya mengenai petualangan dia di negeri SPHINX...untungnya dia ga ketemu org  kaya one my kid's parents...jadi dia sangat menikmati berpetualang di alam Mesir sana...we had a good laugh though....he brought sand from EGYPT desert...hahahahah menarik...sangat menarik...dan pemandangannya, arsitektur bangunannya...WOW...I guess I really need a trip like that...
dia menyayangkan karena kamera-nya pixelnya ga cukup besar...tapi photo2nya cukup bikin gue mupeng kok!!! :))

pembicaraan pun berlanjut ke masalah gadget...esp camera....he admitted that he is too gaptek about this thing...(FYI, he can be gaptek but he knows cooking better than me!!! *waks*)

then pembicaraan berlanjut menuju yg namanya RENCANA..Planning di 2011 mo ngapain...
to tell the truth, I still hv a blurry idea about what I'm gonna do in 2011...definitely not getting married...I told him my end in mind in 2011 is "work hard play harder shopping books and gadgets more"....:))
dan planning-nya dia di 2011 adalah untuk pulang ke Indo for good karena dia mo settle down...(FYI, he is in Eindhoven at the moment)
dan gue tanya apa planningnya setelah plg???
dia cuman bilang..."gue ini orang yg merdeka...gue akan melakukan apa saja sesuai kata hati...saat gue mo kerja ya gue kerja...saat gue mo sekolah lagi ya sekolah....saat gue mo travelling ya gue pergi....saat gue mo pulang ya gue pulang"

Yep...that's it!!!
At that moment I got a reminder that we need to enjoy life and follow our heart!!! There will always a way....

So IN CONCLUSION...in 2011, I will be a free gal....mo nabung ya nabung, mo beli gadget ya beli, mo jalan2 ya jalan2, mo ngeborong buku ya diborong bukunya, mo married ya married klo ud ada yg oas...HAHAHHAHAHAA

(thanks, Rik....!!!buat pencerahan akhir tahunnya!!!)

i  must confess that i am not a dreamer. i don't usually spend my time dreaming over something that i want to be or to have or to do. i say i am a realistic person. that is my strength as well as my weakness. so far i can recall i have not really planned something like saving money to buy what i want or need. i am a spontaneous and that's why everything about money is so unplanned, which is not very good. one thing that is well planned in my head is what books i want to buy next hahahha!!!

though i am not a dreamer i wish for many kind of things in my life. twenty nine year old woman like me surely not that plain. i do think of dreams, hopes and imagination. we all do, right? small or big, wide or narrow, we have those little sparks that make our eyes glowing like stars.

who never dreams of going to beautiful places in the world? i am thinking of Lombok, Bali, Padang, Jogja, Toraja, Kalimantan, Nias and all those heaven like spots around Indonesia, my lovely country. what's more?? of course romantic, historical and magical places in Rome, England, Scotland, New Zealand, Greek, China, etc. anywhere but here, ever heard that phrase?

i also wish to master 3 or 5 languages like people whose job is to connect with other foreign countries. then, continue my study like in education, psychology, or philosophy or three of them altogether and oh, theology. i am interested in those four areas of discipline. knowledge to elevate, sounds familiar?

i wish i have a house by the sea shore, wish to ride a ship cruise, wish to stay in a most expensive hotel, wish to be a famous book author, wish to meet favorite authors, wish to be an archeologist, wish to collect millions of books, wish to be smart and genius, wish to raise fund and help poor people, and so much more. it could be endless because dreams are limitless.

after all those wishes i just smile, close my eyes, open them and take a look around. i am happy enough of what i am now. just try to live as best as i can. i don't envy anyone. i am happy if somebody has more than me or happier than me. there is nothing can compare one's life to another. we are blessed one way or another. less complaining and enjoying more.

dreams are to achieve because it's not yet coming but our present life is a gift we receive, live it now.

if a wish ever come true, it's because we don't stop believing :)   

the year 2010 is ended. it has left many memories i believe. sweet or bitter we passed them all. at the beginning of that year our thought full of questions on how we can face each day ahead but then we found ourselves survived. perhaps we experienced different things but we eventually took some lessons. i don't remember exactly what had i learnt on those twelve inevitable months but i'll try to write them here:

` i did not teach playgroup anymore.
` i started teaching Grade 1.
` i bought a new cellphone with my own money.
` i spent lots of money buying imported books.
` i had ups and downs in my spiritual growth.
` i was so close with my dad.
` i did not wrap any books.
` i was so lazy ironing my clothes.
` i added some bookmarks.
` i had a great time with katrin, natali, helen, ola, novita.
` i learnt to control my emotions.
` i had a bad time management.
` i worked late a lot.
` i drank coffee a lot.

i still have many stories to tell but i hardly remember again hahahhaha... recently, i came up to realize that i have a short term memory and hard to concentrate 100%. i wonder why... so far i know i have heaps problems to fix on myself. i do aware enough what needs to be renewed. i hope it does not stop only in thoughts but proceed into action.

no resolution or new plans. i guess i am not that kind of person. i just know who i am and what to do. i know what is ahead of me and set my steps. well, maybe i will list something about planning but not in details. i still have my dreams, my wishes and flourish them in my heart. if someday to be come true my life will never be the same :)

hope you have a magnificent year with amazing things to experience and be thanked for. full of smiles and interesting moments. unforgettable people and lessons. may you have all the spirit and power to make you stand strong no matter happen!!!     

school is on the corner.. i can't help thinking the work i have to deal with.. i can't help imagining the routines... oh i wish to replay my holiday. back to the first day. those days when no worries caught me and i was free to do my own routines... why only in gadgets a rewind button is provided. why life can't have it?

well, i finished 4 books and going to the fifth. i slept late and of course woke up late.. i enjoyed browsing and updating my blogs. i did a bible study group with extraordinary women, yeah! i ironed lots of clothes (with flowing sweat and tired feet). i tidied up my room. i took a bath every day. i washed my hair everyday. i did not watch my diet (hiks). i fell in love again (and made some poems!). i rinse clothes every two days. i cleaned the bathroom. i felt better at home...

monday here i come!!