Monday, April 21, 2014
today and the other days when i miss you
I miss you bapak...
Sometimes I want to look at your pictures for hours
Sometimes I want to smell your clothes and stay in your closet without counting the time
Sometimes I want to take one of your shirts and hug it with me in my bed for many nights
Sometimes I wish to be by your side, read a book and just being there. Then go home when the day is getting dark...
How are you bapak?
Sometimes life is easy, without you
Sometimes life is tougher, without you
Sometimes life is living, without you
Sometimes life is pausing, without you
I miss you bapak...
Sometimes when I am late from work, just to hear your worried voice
Sometimes when it is weekend, just to hear you ask us to have meal outside
Sometimes when I am thinking of my wedding, just want to hear you saying "I am with you"
And some days ago on my birthday, just want to feel your warm hug again
How are you bapak?
I am just fine
We are just fine
Sometimes there are sad, sadder days
Sometimes there are happy, happier days
In any days I want to remember you
Posted at 01:29 am by choconet
Thursday, April 04, 2013
Saya masih kesal. Setiap kali harus mengingat hari Selasa dan Jumat. Masih kesal. Marah mungkin. Sedikit murka (mungkin ada).
Saya kesal dengan orang yang tidak merasa bahwa komunikasi itu penting diantara rekan kerja.
Sayapun tidak masalah bila tidak ada komunikasi, jika memang saya bekerja sendiri. Saya mampu mencari tahu dengan otak saya.
Saya bingung kenapa ada orang yang berhenti berbuat yang terbaik, meskipun dia tahu dia bisa
melakukannya dan tidak ada siapapun yang menghalangi.
Saya heran. Semua bertentangan dengan nilai-nilai yang saya hargai.
Posted at 11:59 pm by choconet
Tuesday, April 02, 2013
The blog is still alive.... Can't believe leaving it for almost two years!!! I didn't run out of ideas or inspiration. They are always popping in my head. The trouble is they appeared mostly in unexpected places when I was not with my netbook. What's more is when I was with my netbook the mood to write is gone.... And I ended up in front of my netbook, looking blank to its screen, hahahha....
I didn't remember how many times I promised to my self that I will not be a lazy blogger but reality is against me :)
So, I think it is best for me to never stop trying. I will try my very very very best to update this blog. Hoping that the other writer has the same hope with me :))) (yes, am talking to you netgurl....)
Hopefully I keep my word this time.
Posted at 11:20 pm by choconet
Wednesday, April 06, 2011
sepenggal inspirasi untuk hidup
antara sungguh-sungguh dan sukses itu tidak bersebelahan, tapi ada jarak. jarak ini bisa hanya satu sentimeter, tapi bisa juga ribuan kilometer. jarak ini bisa ditempuh dalam hitungan detik, tapi juga bisa puluhan tahun.
jarak antara sungguh-sungguh dan sukses hanya bisa diisi dengan sabar. sabar yang aktif, sabar yang gigih, sabar yang tidak menyerah, sabar yang penuh dari pangkal sampai ujung yang paling ujung. sabar yang bisa membuat sesuatu yang tidak mungkin, bahkan seakan-akan itu sebuah keajaiban dan keberuntungan. padahal keberuntungan adalah hasil kerja keras, doa dan sabar yang berlebih-lebih.
bagaimanapun tingginya impian, dia tetap wajib dibela habis-habisan walau hidup sudah digelung nestapa akut. hanya dengan sungguh-sungguh jalan sukses terbuka. tapi hanya dengan sabarlah takdir itu terkuak menjadi nyata. dan Tuhan selalu memilihkan yang terbaik dan paling kita butuhkan. itulah hadiah Tuhan buat hati yang kukuh dan sabar.
sabar itu awalnya terasa pahit, tetapi akhirnya lebih manis daripada madu. siapa yang sabar akan beruntung (man shabara zhafira).
~~Ranah 3 Warna, Ahmad Fuadi, hal. 468-469.
Posted at 11:40 pm by choconet
Saturday, January 29, 2011
menunggu, menanti dengan penuh harap..
meski waktu seakan mencuri harapan..
membuat hidup seakan berhenti menatap ke depan..
menahan langkah untuk memeluk mimpi-mimpi, cita-cita..
namun waktu dapat dikalahkan..
oleh kuatnya harapan..
walau esok tidak selalu sama dengan hari ini..
bukan artinya tiada harapan..
betapa pengharapan itu tidak sia-sia..
pada masa ia berbuah kelak..
Posted at 10:46 am by choconet
Sunday, January 09, 2011
this is the end of three weeks school holiday. many things have happened and some things will stay long in my mind. i remember how He answered my prayers at the beginning of this year, 2011. He somehow made a wake up call on me. i am fresh and renewed.. isn't it great to possess such a great feeling?
i am going to make important decisions during this year. in jobs, relationship, family, and service. challenges will be always on my way but perhaps in a different way than last year, who knows?
i hold on to a stronger hope. i pray that my heart will stay committed on what i believe. unshakable and true. i ask everything i need to be the light and salt for others. nothing is impossible if we are truly faithful.
always and always to put my trust on Him, whose love and grace keep me alive... really alive.
Posted at 11:42 pm by choconet
Saturday, January 08, 2011
i just want to take note of this following words. it reminds me about keeping my pace not in a hurry...
J. B. Phillips has said: (Christ's) task and responsibility might well have driven man out of his mind. but He was never in a hurry, never impressed by numbers, never a slave of the clock. He was acting, as He said, as He observed God to act--never in a hurry."The Almighty God may be busy, but He is never in a hurry..
as i read those words i learn that i had dedicated most of my time to do my routine work or do things which not pleased Him. i failed to devote some precious time for He who owns this time and everything in my life. all i can think is work and work and how i can please myself.
time flies and i don't want to repeat mistakes. i want to be free from those routines. i want to be free to show my love and compassion. i want to be free to worship Him with all the thirst and hunger of my souls.
Posted at 08:48 pm by choconet
Friday, January 07, 2011
Two movies at the end of 2010 and at the beginning 0f 2011
Yeah....my last movie in 2010 is THE TOURIST!!!
Damn!!! it's so entertaining...enjoying Johhny Depp acting so much (I always love his act...) BUT I just wondering why his running style was so JACK SPARROW...ckckckckc
nice view too...and good artists Ms Jolie n Mr Depp...awesome!!!
Then my 1st movie in 2011 is LITTLE FOCKERS!!!!
It was so HILLARIOUS....so entertaining....at least it entertained me:))
BUT I guess it's still PG 13 ......hahahahahhahaa
I can't wait for another 2011 good movies!!! :))
Posted at 09:49 pm by choconet
Life Lesson at the end of 2010
detik2 pergantian tahun...
seperti biasa I'm too stunning with my PC and I had this conversation with one of my boy friend....
This is what I called not too deep topic BUT it has GOOD QUALITY...
pembicaraan kita standard lah...gue sibuk bertanya mengenai petualangan dia di negeri SPHINX...untungnya dia ga ketemu org kaya one my kid's parents...jadi dia sangat menikmati berpetualang di alam Mesir sana...we had a good laugh though....he brought sand from EGYPT desert...hahahahah menarik...sangat menarik...dan pemandangannya, arsitektur bangunannya...WOW...I guess I really need a trip like that...
dia menyayangkan karena kamera-nya pixelnya ga cukup besar...tapi photo2nya cukup bikin gue mupeng kok!!! :))
pembicaraan pun berlanjut ke masalah gadget...esp camera....he admitted that he is too gaptek about this thing...(FYI, he can be gaptek but he knows cooking better than me!!! *waks*)
then pembicaraan berlanjut menuju yg namanya RENCANA..Planning di 2011 mo ngapain...
to tell the truth, I still hv a blurry idea about what I'm gonna do in 2011...definitely not getting married...I told him my end in mind in 2011 is "work hard play harder shopping books and gadgets more"....:))
dan planning-nya dia di 2011 adalah untuk pulang ke Indo for good karena dia mo settle down...(FYI, he is in Eindhoven at the moment)
dan gue tanya apa planningnya setelah plg???
dia cuman bilang..."gue ini orang yg merdeka...gue akan melakukan apa saja sesuai kata hati...saat gue mo kerja ya gue kerja...saat gue mo sekolah lagi ya sekolah....saat gue mo travelling ya gue pergi....saat gue mo pulang ya gue pulang"
At that moment I got a reminder that we need to enjoy life and follow our heart!!! There will always a way....
So IN CONCLUSION...in 2011, I will be a free gal....mo nabung ya nabung, mo beli gadget ya beli, mo jalan2 ya jalan2, mo ngeborong buku ya diborong bukunya, mo married ya married klo ud ada yg oas...HAHAHHAHAHAA
(thanks, Rik....!!!buat pencerahan akhir tahunnya!!!)
Posted at 09:27 pm by choconet
Yep...that's what I feel all through this year....
I can complete my studies...and achieved goal as an M.Ed...
I got new challenges with my kidos...
I got side job as I always pray for....
I always have good friends around me...
All d family are healthy...
what else I can ask for...
I just feel I am blessed....
O ya...besides that..I could buy some of my dream gadgets with my own money!!!!!!! :))
Thanks God....for everything!!!
U're Awesome!!! :))
Posted at 09:24 pm by choconet